I met him when I was sixteen. There was something about him but I didn’t quite know what which made me feel that feeling whose name I didn’t know. Was it those eyes flowing with kindness? Or that smile that conveyed “Everything is alright. I’m here.” He had a soft and reassuring presence and I wanted more of that.

It got very quickly to the stage where I could not take him out of my mind. I was surprised, “Why is my first thought of the day as I get off the bed about him? Who is he? Why does he seem so important to me?” But I did not search intensely for answers partly because I knew nobody could tell me and largely because I was enjoying whatever was happening to me. There was a spring in my step, even when things weren’t smooth, like during exams 🙂

Life had suddenly become beautiful because his eyes, his smile, his words and his silence had somehow conveyed that he knew. I had no idea what, but it was something I knew nobody else knew. Did he know what life is and why it is like it is? This made it all the more exciting because so far, I hadn’t seen anybody interested in finding out or in letting me find out. But if he really did know, he seemed in no great hurry to share this secret. I figured I was going to have to wait.

However, I could not stop wondering how he could make so many people so happy? And without doubt, he was having the same effect on me. What was he up to? What did he want? Because everybody wants something. I watched him over the years, from a distance and up close. If there is something he wants, it is to give, that’s where his joy lies. Making people smile is not that difficult – a little charm and wit will suffice. But keeping the smile on them even when they are going through adversity is a tougher gig to pull off. It means hours and hours of listening each time they are going through a breakdown; it means hand-holding them each time they cry out for help. It means being prepared to wait for years just to allow them to realize that all they have to do is smile.

If the measure of a person lies in what he shares, Sri Sri’s vastness is hard to put within boundaries. The mad rush of people forever running after him is only an outer reflection of his inner richness. It is a sign of what he has given to their lives that they so desperately want to thank him for, not knowing how. When everything that you can wish for is dwarfed by what you are being given anyway, what do you wish for?

If I had to ask for something, what would it be?

Comforts had their charm earlier but after meeting You,

I realized that the pain of love is the only comfort for lovers.

I thought all my desires had left me wiser

but my desire for You has only grown not sated.

I felt blessed for all that had been given to me until it dawned

that the greatest fortune is to be ruined in love.

I believed wealth, power and fame counted in this world

but they are just toys in this enchanting toy shop.

I was frightened by the thought of being separated from You

and now waiting for You is what keeps me alive.

I trod cautiously because I thought I had a good chance

but am unstoppable now that I have lost all hope.

I was afraid I would forget You for this world

and now everything in it reminds me of You.

I thought all I had to do was to stay in my senses

and here I am, unable to hide my madness anymore.

I remember the moment time stopped forever

when You turned and looked into my eyes

I knew life was made and all else was mere detail.



14 Responses to “A Devotee’s Wish”

  1. Namita Bohara

    It is indeed a beautiful post. Am sure a lot of us will relate to what is written. Must admit this post is coming straight from the heart by who ever has written this article.

    • sachin

      Such mature expression of inexpressible. Wow..Loved every word as I could totally relate to it…

  2. Asma Butt

    Bravo…..A true devotee can only write this exceptional masterpiece because it’s written with the soul inception. I am mesmerized by the writing and Gurujee indeed possess an enigmity in him, the power that can covert enemies into friends and negatives into positives.

  3. Ravi Sekaran

    Nakulji….you must have been a Sufi saint in your previous life…and no less in this one!

  4. aparajita

    very candidly/innocently written with an open heart.we all feel the same.but we elders dont express like he has done.jgd

  5. Radhika

    Reading this post, made my day!! Could relate so much with every word written. Came across this post, just when I needed it.

    Thank you for sharing..Please continue writing and sharing!! JGD 🙂

  6. MR

    beautifully written with pure thoughts in heart…touch me so much when I needed something to lift me up….thank you for sharing

  7. Susmita

    Very sweet words, just reading few lines made me understand your feelings of inner joy! JGD. Stay ever blessed

  8. Geetanjali

    Wow..reading this made my day..yes we all feel the same and you have beautiful y expressed it..touched my heart


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