” Grace has the ability to change anything at anytime”.
” Have faith that the Divine loves me so much that only the best will happen to me”.
Such powerful words from Sri Sri Ravishankar Guruji, my Master, rang true in an unexpected, out of the blue turn of events. I was going through some emotional turmoil and needed the attention of my Master.
My heart prayed ” Anyata sharanam nasti” ( I have no one but You).
In a disturbed state of mind, after a week of my return from the U.S., in August this year, I signed up for a week long Silence Course with Swami Brahmatej ji along with Bhagavad Gita discourse by Sri Sri Ravishankar, my Master. It was a spur of the moment decision. I can only attribute it to the divine plan.
The experience of listening to Gita by Gurudev in silence is something that cannot be expressed in words. A mesmerising transformation took place and my fluttering mind rested in tranquility!
Gurudev Sri Sri Ravi Shankar says in Ashtavakra Gita that, the entire existence is a futile attempt to express the inexpressible. Yet I am attempting to express my experience knowing fully well it is a futile exercise. There is an urgent urge to share, a calling, a divine plan perhaps. I am letting my fingers to flow on the keyboard. I am not the writer!
Life is a jungle, full of wild animals, both within and without. The importance of Sadhana, Knowledge and Service without expecting anything in return to be at peace with myself came into sharp focus during the course. This awareness can only happen with the loving and compassionate guidance from our Master.
With Swami Brahmatej ji’s guidance, I became Arjuna as I proceeded towards the New Meditation Hall for the discourse. Mind was caught up in the multitude of worldly affairs waiting for the solace that only my Master could give. I prayed ” Please, do not ever let me go. Help me do my duty keeping You with me”.
The silence and chanting in the hall while we awaited Gurudev ‘s arrival was electrifying. As He entered the hall, I felt His gaze on me and I folded my hands in reverence. I remembered a verse from Gita I had read years ago. ‘ Consider yourself blessed if the gaze of the Lord rests on you even for a split of a second’. I held on to the gaze and closed my eyes. Discourse began. I dozed off! Suddenly I felt someone tapping on my right shoulder, three times, to wake me up. I opened my eyes and looked to my right. There was no one! I was overcome with His attention, compassion and care for me.
I was wide awake and fresh. He was saying “Gita was given in a battle field , but here, you are all listening sitting comfortably in this beautiful hall. But haan, if there is a war going on inside you, it is a different story. Keep me with you and fight the war. It is the test of your faith”. Just what I needed! He woke me up so I don’t miss these vital words. He gave me all the answers to the duality in my mind in just two or three sentences. It was a moment of instant peace, contentment, faith, discrimination, valor and surrender, all at once!
Ever since like Arjun, whenever I am disturbed, I have learnt to bring my chariot to the middle to get an impartial, non judgemental view of the situation. From this space I find peace.
I also ask myself ‘ what could be the reason behind God creating this situation for me ? What lesson does He want me to learn from this?’ Stepping aside and be a witness helps me detach from the situation and to rest at the core of my being. From this space one can fight any war within or without. This space is Krishna, the absolute joy! One foot on the ground, firmly rooted to play in the world, to do one’s calling and the other in the air, untouched by Worldly affairs , just a witness. When I was ten years old, some one had asked me ” Do you know the meaning of your name? Leela means Play. You are the Play of the Divine.” I had laughed not knowing what it means to be a Divine Play.
Going back to the source again and again helps me get established in peace more and more. I am grateful to have a living Master to guide me lovingly. I wish the entire world to come in to the fold of the Art of Living to find the peace with in. I wish the butterfly effect of my Sadhana to reach far and wide to make a difference. My Sadhana is not just for me anymore. What a feeling of expansion!
As a young girl I was very fond of a picture of Vishwarupa that was kept in the puja room of my grandmother. ” Can I have it when I grow up? ” I used to plead to her. However, when I grew up and had my own home, I could not locate the picture as she kept moving from house to house of her four children. Desolate, I gave up. Years later Gita has taught me ‘ Whatever I am, you are That too’. I don’t need the picture anymore!
Gita is the source of peace. International day of Peace is celebrated on September 21 every year. Why do we need to celebrate peace only one day in a year when peace is our very nature?! I wonder! I am Peace, I am Joy, I am Love. The presence of a Master in ones life keeps one kindled. Listening to Gita by my Master has filled me with the longing to see Bhagavad Gita put on the world map as a blueprint for a life of peace and pure bliss.
OM shanti shanti shanti hi!